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Retrospection - I Survived Another Year



:: Retrospection - I Survived Another Year ::

Looking back at the past years....




:: 16 December 2002 ::

1:27a - 15 Dec, Bali
Lots happened in the span of 24 hours, and there's much to report.
But I'm So close away to 26, and I'm going to cry again.

:: 16 December 2003 ::

8:49p - 16 December : The Road Goes On...
Happy Birthday celtic_cross!!
Happy Birthday Cheryl!!
Everyone grows older, but wiser?

Birthdays always remind me of Mary Hopkin's Meaningful Song: Those Were The Days...

Once upon a time there was a tavern
Where we used to raise a glass or two
Remember how we laughed away the hours
And dreamed of all the great things we would do

Those were the days my friend
We thought they'd never end
We'd sing and dance forever and a day
We'd live the life we choose
We'd fight and never lose
For we were young and sure to have our way.
La la la la...
Those were the days, oh yes those were the days

Then the busy years went rushing by us
We lost our starry notions on the way
If by chance I'd see you in the tavern
We'd smile at one another and we'd say

Those were the days my friend
We thought they'd never end
We'd sing and dance forever and a day
We'd live the life we choose
We'd fight and never lose
For we were young and sure to have our way.
La la la la...
Those were the days, oh yes those were the days

Just tonight I stood before the tavern
Nothing seemed the way it used to be
In the glass I saw a strange reflection
Was that lonely woman really me

Those were the days my friend
We thought they'd never end
We'd sing and dance forever and a day
We'd live the life we choose
We'd fight and never lose
For we were young and sure to have our way.
La la la la...
Those were the days, oh yes those were the days

Through the door there came familiar laughter
I saw your face and heard you call my name
Oh my friend we're older but no wiser
For in our hearts the dreams are still the same

Those were the days my friend
We thought they'd never end
We'd sing and dance forever and a day
We'd live the life we choose
We'd fight and never lose
For we were young and sure to have our way.
La la la la...
Those were the days, oh yes those were the days

Yes, those were the days. And perhaps, it's really up to us to create those day for the future, when we look back and say again, "those were the days".

:: 16 December 2004 ::



Every year, at this time, I will look back at the years of this insignificant existence of mine and cry.
Cry to the fact that I have managed to come so far when my journey could have ended.
Cry to the fact that I have never given up on myself when there was almost no way out.
Cry to the fact that there were angels that cared for me and helped shaped me to become what I am today.
Cry to the fact that I am still an insignificant being and be humbled by that.

The persistence of memories makes me appreciate my current state of being.
There should never be anything too painful to repress, for acceptance and acknowledgement will only serve to release one from such pain.
It's bittersweet reminiscing one's past which is only littered with painful flashbacks.
Bitter because they still hurt and make me cry.
Yet sweet for I am now content with whatever little I possess and yet focused enough to push myself beyond whatever limits I've imposed on myself.
And I would not have been what I am if not for them; I would have not been a fighter and a survivor.
Now nobody shall kill me if I do not allow them to.
Nobody.

Maybe it's the sunshine after the rain (and a thunderstorm it was!) but I was blessed to have angels by my side during my darkest hours.
Without them, I am not sure if I would have had the tenacity to carry on.
I was fortunate to have these people, and more, around me to give me the care and concern, and love that I never knew about.
Thank you for the love.

Notwithstanding, I still see myself as an insignificant being. I should be.
And I'm grateful for that.
Even as I've survived so far, the road unfolds and the journey goes on.

May I grow older and
wiser
.





:: 16 December 2005 ::

:: The Rides of Our Lives ::

And so, without warning, it's less than a fortnight to the end of the year.

The end of the year is like the end of a rollercoaster ride.
The ride's the slowest at the beginning, when the rollercoaster climbs slowly up the ramp.
And then, before we know it, it plunges us into the most exhilarating ride of our lives.
Lots of wind. Renders us speechless. And then, we're already at the end of the ride.
Probably the adrenaline kept us so high that we've forgotten much of the ride but remembered that we felt good about it.
And now we're approaching the platform our minds race back in time.
To attempt to recall the highlights of the year that will pass.
Then then we hear:
"You've reached the end of the rollercoaster ride."
"Please remove the safety bar and step safely aside."
"See you and please come again."
There's no time to sit and relish.
There're throngs of people waiting to get into the ride.
And so we step out.
And move along, following blindly, the queue
To the next rollercoaster ride.
No time to think.
And then off we are, all securly seated.
Climbing the ramp once again.

Is it me, or do the rollercoaster rides seem to get faster and shorter every year?
I wonder.

W.B.D. Games Singapore



Did anyone notice "DANCING"?

:: 16 December 2006 ::

Every year passed, to me
Is a celebration of life, the
Celebration of my survival
For it could have all ended
One day a long time ago.


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HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! ;) and many happy returns of the day!

Happy Birthday!

What matters now is that you're still here, with the company of your friends and loved ones :)

happy birthday! how come no party this year? hmmm.

happy birthday!
may all your dreams come true!

(can't believe i passed up the chance to give you a birthday kiss and wish!)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! :)

Happy birthday......

happy happy birthday~!! :p

Happy burday big bro!!! Ur getting a wee bit older now ya!? *lol* A day late am i?

Thanks for inviting me over to your bash.

U hv touched many lives, just by being who you are.

U r significant.

"No less than the trees and the stars, you have a right to be here"
... Desiderata

@hugs@

happy birthday, bro. let's cathc up sometime soon.

Happy belated birthday

*snuggles* Happy Birthday!

*toasts* To us Burfday boys. May we always be as crappy and wacky as anything. *hic*

Happy Belated Birthday from one W to another W ;o)

happy birthdae! good health in the comin yrs

welcome to the new club!

*happpy birthdae*

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Happy Happy Birthday!

May you find more meaning as you live your life to its fullest!

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