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14 years of Livejournalling, and hopefully, more to come.


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:: We Are What We Think ::

The forum ended early and I speeded home.
While the forum was meant to be motivational (and somewhat evangelistical, to me)
I remain unmoved.
A friend smsed me: "A lot of mixed feelings now.
On one hand, so v for the org but couldn't help but feel
I'm ostracized .....Quite overwhelmed."


I replied: "It is an organisation.
That's all.
To me."


While I remained unmotivated by the forum,
it doesn't imply that I'm unprofessional and that I am unable to self-motivate.
I have the confidence to deem myself as the better of the lot.
In every organisation I see I notice jaded people, people who resign themselves to the supposed fate that they're in.
Mired in despair, they're just contented with a 9-5 routine and will not do more.
It's scary that we're supposed to be at the prime of our lives yet feel this way.
And everything goes downhilll henceforth.

And while I remained unmotivated,
I decided to go for a run. ECP. Yups.
Running on tunes like PumpItUp, HollerbackGirl, MyGoodies, GodIsADJ, Bryana-remix is so so very good.
I actually ran more!

On the topic of WeAreWhatWeThink, while I was jogging,
my mind went back to the previous topic about me and my JC friends.
For a couple of occasions I've interacting with friends of my age or somewhere near.
I realised that somehow they all seemed older than me.
Not just in appearance
but also in behaviour.
(behaviour, not maturity.)
It struck me that perhaps I am not acting my age;
that I willingly put myself in a subservient role in terms of age-seniority.

If that is the case, would a person who is always in the company of younger folk,
but somewhat younger lookswise and mannerwise?
Wonder.

And as all of us grow older by the year,
It is only a matter of time that time slaps us hard in the face.
When we look at the mirror and realise that we're trying to hard
to fit into an era that is long gone.
Perhaps it's time to don that polo tee instead of that OP beach singlet?
Or do we need to wait till someone says "Grow up!"?

Then again, if we're happy, do we need to care?
Wonder.

My mind meanders too much.

And while I'm still jogging with the company of LoveProfusion, ToTheClub, Doncha,
My mind divagates further to the newspaper article I read on Today this morning
about the elderly population living in Singapore and how they're not living
with their children.

What keeps the old alive?
While the young ones have dreams and hopes and the future to strive for
What keeps the older ones alive are memories of the glorious past.
And the defining moments.
Just last night, someone mentioned that he has no time for journalling.
I explained, "journalling is probably the best investment of time you can have."
"Photo-taking as well."
For come twenty years and more, when the hairs turn grey and then to white,
what we have are memories:
happy faces at birthday parties;
that sudden trip to argentina;
that day that you thought that you could go on no further;
that moment someone said to you, "I love you"...
everything that could possibly mean something, and should mean something.
Let's try to capture it and put it somewhere safe.
Else it'll fade out from existence,
from our memories
and will never come
this
way
again.

++++++




Memories from the eighties - do you remember?
Found in my stamp album that I forgot I actually had.


PS: I think too much.


i used to collect stamps too. i have most of the stamps! dun think i have the $2 and the one on the bottom left.

PS: Dun over analyse?!

I think i think too much.
But i dun think that thinking too much is that bad a thing yeah?

It's ok to think too much



"It struck me that perhaps I am not acting my age"


Re: It's ok to think too much

so perceptive yeah?
btw i downloaded Eraserhead, finally!


confirm stamp plus chop! ;P

You are not very old wat?? :P

maybe thinking too much...
I like running, coz kept my mind clear of everything, but u seem to be thinking more...

strange

i definitely prefer thinking to running.
we'll just run back to where we started from.

I also wanna say you may be thinkin too much when I read finished~ haha~

2ndly jogging with the music in your ear really make it seems better right???
cos I do that also! haha~ and loving it~

Then again, if we're happy, do we need to care?
Wonder. <-- this part, i feel that as long as we r happy ba~ unless u feel that it's a need to be act more mature and make it known cos u dun wan ppl to look at u as a kid~

smile~

i had those! wow.... my childhood days...

bought the Azone A3 sketchpad la la la ...

why "think" and not think?

both the old and young can still laugh, learn, regret, be wrong, love, die, cry. perhaps it's not age you're troubled about... but a sense of belonging in the scheme of things?

we are what we think. point taken. may i interject a converse angel: we are also what we don't think.

"And as all of us grow older by the year,
It is only a matter of time that time slaps us hard in the face.
When we look at the mirror and realise that we're trying to hard
to fit into an era that is long gone.
Perhaps it's time to don that polo tee instead of that OP beach singlet?
Or do we need to wait till someone says "Grow up!"?"

each of us have our own pace in life. just like you jogging. you can't possibly have missed that symbolism yourself. we fall in love at different "speeds". eat. walk. think of every verb, and for every verb, each of us will do them all at different velocities.

if one cannot hurry love, what of enlightenment? peace of mind? delieverance? transcendance? material success?

there is no gear shift in life, really. everything is as it's meant to be, no matter how we struggle or disagree. it's a point of view only, yes, but it is more positive and healing.

thinking too much is ok if you also feel as much or say as much. ;) jk

i think i used the word "too" too generally.
i think i think too much, but think that it is ok to think that i think too much la la la.


"Cogito ergo sum"

I agree with runecircle, thinking too much is ok.
Your thoughts let you understand yourself better.

In fact, nobody else can say that you think too much, except yourself.
From another angle, the rest could be thinking too little. =)

"From another angle, the rest could be thinking too little."

nice!


on a more serious note, I completely agree about what you said about "journalling is probably the best investment of time you can have."
"Photo-taking as well." *snap snap snap*

I'm only worried about what happens when LJ or Photobucket crash-and-burns.

"I'm only worried about what happens when LJ or Photobucket crash-and-burns."

* i'll really go 'AAARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH !!'

What is growing up? The loss of innocense? The loss of wonder? Sometimes I feel that looking around me, everyone seems to lose a piece of themselves growing up. People become a mere empty shell of what they used to be. Perhaps its how our society functions, but I don't think growing up should be quite that way. We will open our eyes to the prime of our lives as we walk. We will be us, more than us, each day. Maybe its not about donning a polo T, or a beach singlet, maybe it is just how we shall wear our lives. :)

"maybe it is just how we shall wear our lives."

well said and aptly put.
i like to wear mine casual then....


Life is a journey. Some people walk too fast while other walk in circle. To me, what is more impt is that u keep walking on your own 2 feet. Standing up to life's challenges and carry on walking.

I think getting married and having children makes you grow up / old really fast. you get dished this whole new set of responsibilities, mortgages, sleepless nights. something that we who are single get the better deal. and then we have time to think and ponder on other questions in life, and to have the time to exercise more and thus look younger !

but then, many of us, being so engrossed in our 'youth/singlehood', stop at this rather attractive rest stop, and fail to move on. we fail to embrace the next phase in our lives, and then time passes us by. and we wonder if we have been left in another forgotten generation. but if you're happy remaining at this stop, why vex yourself on these new experiences ? Or when you have decided to move on, embrace the next challenge. But bottomline, in many ways, i think we're more fortunate than the simple minded married folk who have chosen to mire themselves in their mundane existence... but again if that's their choice and their joy in life, who am i to judge ?

wakaoz so thot-provoking despite wat the avatar suggests. :P

LIFE it seems, is different things to different people.
I've somehow subscribed to the "Life is about feeling"-school of thought.

Enjoying the moment instead of lamenting about how it was wasted and all the wat not. Learn from the mistake. Be wiser from it, not miserable.

Do watever that you feel is the best for you, that makes you feel good.

People change as do all other things. Do not despair. Every second is a chance to start over again. :)

actually i'm enjoying the moment.
and savouring the sensations.

but you've raised a good point.
for some strange reason, i must be writing rather bleak(ly) since people have a tendency to counsel me; thanks but i'm perfectly alright. in fact, the fact that i can journal it down means that i can look at it right in the eyes.

but thanks thanks =)