Let me look back beyond 2003, in retrospection:
:: 2002 ::
New Year's Eve.
Just returned from a long jog that took me an hour and a half. Did some chin ups and slowly trudged back home. The cool sea breeze after the passing shower chilled the skin and made the journey home a lot more enjoyable than usual. It's in the mind to want to stand and stare. But the run left me with a blister on my toe. Doh.
Like any other year, the year passed by faster than it could begin. I've done some good things; there're things I could fare better. All in all, I hope to be a better person the next year. I hope to have more patience with the people around me. As realistic a person I am, I have to have the patience to understand that everyone needs their own pace to grow, and whatever I apply is only based on my limited judgement.
It's been a year since this appeared on my bio:
Water that is cloudy can only turn clear when it is left quiet.
The dirt will settle to the bottom of its own accord. Any attempt to force this to happen must fail --
and I've learned nothing from it. I'm weak. I'm preaching more than what I'm practising.
I've got to leave the water alone.
Somehow I'm pretty sure that the new year will only get better.
(I'm getting the nike player!)
:: 2001 ::
The day started really early as I drove down to Clementi to help out with the NUS engineering club's newspaper collection. Mark's into recycling, and this time he needed my help. Decided to rope in one or two more people to help. The entire process took up the entire day, and the end product was rather unbelievable (you can imagine how much sweat we toiled!). The profits made from the proceedings would go to MINDS, and I thought it was done for a good cause, especially before the year ended.
When I returned home, it was already dark. I was feeling kinda lethargic but accomplished, with a smile on my face. The night was still young, some friends dropped by for dinner and I caught up with Pauline and Ethan as well as the rest. It was a long but fulfilling day.... but I'd better make my resolutions right now or else I might be just too late on New Year's Eve night.
The 10 Resolutions
1. To improve my stamina physically and run more often
2. To be more patient in all aspects
3. To continue gymming and work for more definition
4. To spend more time with my loved ones
5. To save at least 1/3 to 1/4 of my take-home income
6. To learn a new skill for the upcoming year
7. To accept things I cannot change, the bravery to change things that I can, and the wisdom to know the difference......
(3 more save for tomorrow!)
For end december this year, I shall leave the thoughts to 31 December itself. But nonetheless, I'm glad that my roots remain deeply entrenched to withstand whatever storms that blow over. I still crave for the serentity to accept things I cannot change, the courage to change the things that I can, and ultimately, the wisdom to know the difference. I still subscribe to the idealogy that water that is cloudy can only turn clear when it is left quiet. The dirt will settle to the bottom of its own accord. Any attempt to force this to happen must fail --
And this year, I believe in the cycle of life.
Someone mentioned to me about the window of opportunity: blink and the window will shut forever; the rest of life will be with regrets. Why ask yourself "what ifs" for the rest of your life? Why settle for a life of commonality?
... to be continued ...