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14 years of Livejournalling, and hopefully, more to come.

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It's a rarity that I wake up at eight-plus on a sunday morning.
Rousing myself from slumber, I washed up and then proceeded to iron my shirt and my tie. Should I get a new pair of shoes? There's much to be done today. I must do some last-minute shopping.

The past few days were holidays for me, and gave me time to unwind and recuperate, for the next journey. In my usual retrospective and introspective mood I learned something about myself again, while driving to town from work. I realised that I am way too sensitive about the environment around me, and perhaps, too reactive to the perceived emotional states of the people around me. To the brink of paranoia? I realised that I have to gain some form of composure, to be able to relax and be calm. To understand that I cannot please the world around me, and that I should just relax and let go. With this understanding everything fits together again.

I also realised that I can be critical and demanding and harsh. I think it is also about learning to let go, to see the strength in everyone. Without doubt there is a need to constantly groom and nurture those around me, but I will have to do it positively, and patiently.

It's amazing the wonders self-imposed introspection can do.

Nigel says that he wouldn't need any souvenir but a tin of chinese ginseng tea leaves would do fine. I'm looking forward to seeing him again; the flood of memories captured during the japan days rages on.

Flood? Hmmm... maybe I'll go for a swim.
It's a little cloudy though.

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Nicked from the next entry in my friends list by wenn:

"Obstacles and problems are a part of life. True happiness comes not when we get rid of all of our problems, but when we change our relationship to them, when we see our problems as a potential source of awakening, opportunities to practice patience, and to learn."

- Richard Carlson

i do exactly the same thing and think the same way too.

i get so sensitive about every little gesture , facial muscle , tone and word - i really dwelve deep into some simple social situations into strong perceptions of how they feel (and especially if its about me).

Hyper sensitivity to the world around me.

And many times , i feel too its paranoia. its driving me mad - but its negative (maybe yours isn't) - i paint a v. negative picture of life , and how realistic people are , thru these sensitivities...

but maybe all u see love , warmth , and joy ? ;)

still - i enjoy talking to people who can appreciate such subtle life interactions. You never know , it may be subconsciously so accurate and we are not being paranoia (which i wish is not true....life's so negative it was.)

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